As I wrote previously I have had difficulty in the past becoming pregnant but now that I have had a successful pregnancy and then miscarriage I have been impatiently waiting for it to happen again.
It was a long road to having our daughter, 8 years and a little time spent seeing a specialist who diagnosed me with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) because of irregular periods. We were at the point where we had given up hope when we became pregnant with my daughter. Now two years later and one miscarriage in between I am having a hard time dealing with waiting.
I have been tracking my cycle and doing most of the other options of checking for my fertile window minus the temperature taking and spending a fortune on ovulation prediction kits. Every month I am late I am anxiously awaiting a positive test only to get a negative. The financial cost of tests have me reverting to dollar store tests which I hear they swear are legitimate, I would have to concur at this point they are.
I am getting older, 38 in January and hubby is going to be 40... I just want it to happen already. I feel like I was given a glimpse in to the beauty of pregnancy and now it is being held away from me. I felt like with all the issues during my first pregnancy kept me from really enjoying it and now I know what to expect it is all I want.
I recently went for my physical and the doctor when doing the pap told me my cervix appeared a little blue which could mean early pregnancy. He also thought I may have a bladder infection so he sent me for a blood pregnancy test and I am still patiently (not) waiting to hear back from him, it will be a week tomorrow. I did a pee test but it came out negative, I am also a week out from my period and I didn't use my first morning pee, so maybe it was wrong? Fingers crossed.
** So I started this blog post and apparently I never published :( Anyways an update...I am not pregnant which I am sad about but I figured and my sugars are high. Now I am working on losing weight and getting my sugars under control, I will then go back to the doctor in 6 months and discuss my progress and get my sugar retested. I am monitoring as well and I am to see him if I see a consistently high reading.
